when the. when you.

haha remember when i said i was prepping for my legal name change.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i gotta call up translifeline for helpful instructions on how to file legal paperwork my audhd brain can handle, and more importantly, ask for a microgrant. but like. man.

i have a habit of getting caught in these weird moments where i realize im so used to the way things are, even if theyre actively disadvantageous or uncomfortable, and get too anxious to take the steps to fix things. more or less the thing that happened when i was coming out and the reason that technically took like 2 years.

i guess its a mix of that and general social anxiety and executive dysfunction.

it really should feel freeing but right now my brain is like "well you thought about calling translifeline thats enough for today you should play cult of the lamb instead x3"

i reeaaaaalllllyyyyy hope i dont get this way when i gotta acquire testosterone.