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HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^
a better BETTER introduction since i've actually decided to commit to using dreamwidth :3
welcome to the turbine dunes!!! i am elijah and i love being absolutely silly and goofy. mostly here to document my monthly visits from the autism fairy.
basic stats
19. he/him. latino+white. majoring in animation. my neocities
( CLICK IF YOU DAREEEEE )
you have to be INSANE
Aug. 26th, 2026 01:15 pmmy college tag is gonna be art school = csm devil hunting
there's a line in CSM about how all devil hunters have to be at least a little insane because otherwise the job will kill you
i think the same thing goes for art school
you have to be a little insane to actually want to do animation as a career.
thats me!!!!!!!! im an art school devil hunter
there's a line in CSM about how all devil hunters have to be at least a little insane because otherwise the job will kill you
i think the same thing goes for art school
you have to be a little insane to actually want to do animation as a career.
thats me!!!!!!!! im an art school devil hunter
its hard to believe im gonna be a college junior, i started this blog when i was a senior in high school. time really flies, it's wild.
lots been on my mind lately. working at target almost every day, gonna be 100k in debt after graduating (planning to pay for my last year out of pocket so i dont take out another expensive loan.... thank u target.........), worrying about job prospects, thinking about later down the line when i might be starting to settle down and think about adoption.. many things.
gotta start planning my junior film!!!!! apparently we need an elevator pitch the second we walk into class on the first day.
also. my fucking animation teacher is luz batista. as in, the luz batista that storyboarded on the owl house. and who dana terrace based luz noceda off of.
im so fucking hyped.
I CAN ONLY MENTION THIS HERE BECAUSE SHE LIKES TO BE PRIVATE ABOUT IT AND DOESNT WANT PEOPLE TO BE WEIRD SO I CANT MENTION IT SUPER OPENLY BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
should i make a tag for discussing my college?? does it even matter?? how many posts am i gonna make before i graduate?? (hopefully many, i want to post more this year....)
ANYWAYS, ELIJAH OUT!!
lots been on my mind lately. working at target almost every day, gonna be 100k in debt after graduating (planning to pay for my last year out of pocket so i dont take out another expensive loan.... thank u target.........), worrying about job prospects, thinking about later down the line when i might be starting to settle down and think about adoption.. many things.
gotta start planning my junior film!!!!! apparently we need an elevator pitch the second we walk into class on the first day.
also. my fucking animation teacher is luz batista. as in, the luz batista that storyboarded on the owl house. and who dana terrace based luz noceda off of.
im so fucking hyped.
I CAN ONLY MENTION THIS HERE BECAUSE SHE LIKES TO BE PRIVATE ABOUT IT AND DOESNT WANT PEOPLE TO BE WEIRD SO I CANT MENTION IT SUPER OPENLY BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
should i make a tag for discussing my college?? does it even matter?? how many posts am i gonna make before i graduate?? (hopefully many, i want to post more this year....)
ANYWAYS, ELIJAH OUT!!
THE RUMORS ARE TRUE, I AM 20 NOW!!!!
i actually originally wanted to do one of those 10 things before you turn 20 lists but unfortunately i missed my window of opportunity nooooooooooooo
MAYBE SUGGEST SOME IDEAS IF YOU HAVE ANY BECAUSE I STILL LIKE THE SENTIMENT……
anyways im writing this very quickly just before my class is about to start so cya!!!
i actually originally wanted to do one of those 10 things before you turn 20 lists but unfortunately i missed my window of opportunity nooooooooooooo
MAYBE SUGGEST SOME IDEAS IF YOU HAVE ANY BECAUSE I STILL LIKE THE SENTIMENT……
anyways im writing this very quickly just before my class is about to start so cya!!!
ITS TOO CLICHE
Mar. 10th, 2026 09:46 ammy birthday’s in less than 10 days!!! i actually can’t believe it, ive been saying im 20 for a bit to get used to saying it early, but wow, im really gonna be 20 lol
LONGER POST SOON BTW IM JUST SUPER BUSY D:
LONGER POST SOON BTW IM JUST SUPER BUSY D:
ask me about my bulls(eye)shit
Mar. 3rd, 2026 06:37 pmso far target seems really nice!!!!!!!! unfortunately there does seem to be a bit of the 'hey why arent you Perfect at this yet and why havent you Memorized all this yet even though you're new' even if no one's saying it outright, but there are also a lot of super sweet and patient people who also arent afraid to poke at the higher ups, which helped me let my guard down a twee.
for whatever reason a bunch of aisles are just mislabeled so learning to stock took me a super long time, was also mildly embarrassing, and involved a lot of "hey..... where's aisle c44.........."
actually there was a guy i met yesterday at our 'orientation' (why is working at target so high school coded) who was supposed to work today also but i guess he was in a different department or something, maybe working in the back with the equipment? maybe ill text him and see how his first day was :0 knowing that im not the *only* new team member makes me feel a bit better because i know everyones gonna be dealing with the adjustment. unless they all immediately get the hang of it before me and im left lagging behind and then all the higher ups get mad at me. thats always possible!!
also halfway through my shift for whatever reason one of the higher ups decided to task me with. fixing the tiny side displays for aisles? it felt a little embarrassing and made me wonder if i was stocking so badly i had to be demoted to the Baby Task(tm)
i didnt think i was doing *that* badly, it was more like i was having a hard time understanding where i was and wasn't supposed to be grabbing items, where excess inventory was supposed to go, etc.
they were so intent on me being tasked with that one specific job though, i thought i finished at first and then went back to stocking (or pushing ive heard them call it) and the higher up was like. hey. what are you doing..............
she also yelled at me from across the store to come over and fix one i missed. like not necessarily angry yell more like just emphatic to get my attention but i was still surprised.
one of the super nice coworkers was even like. why the fuck are they making you do this, this is so random.
also my scanner device called a zebra lowkey broke halfway through and was caught in a restart loop and made a really loud noise every time it restart so that was pretty crazy. had basically no consequences though luckily since no one asked me to find any items or unlock anything after it happened.
anyways hopefully im able to pick everything up quickly so i can just do my job without disappointing anyone..................
no one seemed outright annoyed with me or like scolded me or anything and generally was like "its your first day its alright" but i still definitely felt those side eyes...........
weirdly enough customer service (similar to the diner job) seems to both rank lowest on the echeladder of responsibilities and be the thing i enjoy the most. like obviously making sure all the store maintenance and stock work getting done on time is important but damn i forgot how little customers factor in to that. but it felt really good to open locked items for people and lead people to the right aisles ^_^
also im gonna be so real, my walkie talkie scares me. i barely understand what anyones saying on it, so im scared i wont hear when someones calling for me, or what specifically theyll ask me for.
luckily for whatever miraculous reason, my anxietys been like. muffled lately?? like my anxiety typically can get so bad it physically debilitates me and i can barely breathe and my chest hurts, but now its more like things make me like. mildly nervous, but only in my head, it doesnt spread to the rest of my body.
update in the middle of typing lol, i texted my orientation buddy and he was on register all day rippppppp, hes also working tomorrow so maybe ill be able to say hi :0
idk. im gonna try to lock in tomorrow fr, stocking isnt *that* hard, i got this frfr.
cya!!! thanks for reading!!!
for whatever reason a bunch of aisles are just mislabeled so learning to stock took me a super long time, was also mildly embarrassing, and involved a lot of "hey..... where's aisle c44.........."
actually there was a guy i met yesterday at our 'orientation' (why is working at target so high school coded) who was supposed to work today also but i guess he was in a different department or something, maybe working in the back with the equipment? maybe ill text him and see how his first day was :0 knowing that im not the *only* new team member makes me feel a bit better because i know everyones gonna be dealing with the adjustment. unless they all immediately get the hang of it before me and im left lagging behind and then all the higher ups get mad at me. thats always possible!!
also halfway through my shift for whatever reason one of the higher ups decided to task me with. fixing the tiny side displays for aisles? it felt a little embarrassing and made me wonder if i was stocking so badly i had to be demoted to the Baby Task(tm)
i didnt think i was doing *that* badly, it was more like i was having a hard time understanding where i was and wasn't supposed to be grabbing items, where excess inventory was supposed to go, etc.
they were so intent on me being tasked with that one specific job though, i thought i finished at first and then went back to stocking (or pushing ive heard them call it) and the higher up was like. hey. what are you doing..............
she also yelled at me from across the store to come over and fix one i missed. like not necessarily angry yell more like just emphatic to get my attention but i was still surprised.
one of the super nice coworkers was even like. why the fuck are they making you do this, this is so random.
also my scanner device called a zebra lowkey broke halfway through and was caught in a restart loop and made a really loud noise every time it restart so that was pretty crazy. had basically no consequences though luckily since no one asked me to find any items or unlock anything after it happened.
anyways hopefully im able to pick everything up quickly so i can just do my job without disappointing anyone..................
no one seemed outright annoyed with me or like scolded me or anything and generally was like "its your first day its alright" but i still definitely felt those side eyes...........
weirdly enough customer service (similar to the diner job) seems to both rank lowest on the echeladder of responsibilities and be the thing i enjoy the most. like obviously making sure all the store maintenance and stock work getting done on time is important but damn i forgot how little customers factor in to that. but it felt really good to open locked items for people and lead people to the right aisles ^_^
also im gonna be so real, my walkie talkie scares me. i barely understand what anyones saying on it, so im scared i wont hear when someones calling for me, or what specifically theyll ask me for.
luckily for whatever miraculous reason, my anxietys been like. muffled lately?? like my anxiety typically can get so bad it physically debilitates me and i can barely breathe and my chest hurts, but now its more like things make me like. mildly nervous, but only in my head, it doesnt spread to the rest of my body.
update in the middle of typing lol, i texted my orientation buddy and he was on register all day rippppppp, hes also working tomorrow so maybe ill be able to say hi :0
idk. im gonna try to lock in tomorrow fr, stocking isnt *that* hard, i got this frfr.
cya!!! thanks for reading!!!
training at target starts tomorrow!!!!! its a 3 to 5 training day, then im scheduled for regularish shifts/training from tuesday to friday from 8am to 4pm. im tired of being anxious all the time so i am decidedly excited instead.
hoping and praying for coworkers around my age who are also autistic and queer so i can actually have friends at work. realistically speaking i can get along with just about anyone (source: The Diner Job /neg) but really only other queer and autistic people are people i can actually be comfortable with and become proper friends with because i dont have to mask around them. the place is (allegedly) understaffed though so most likely itll just be a bunch of neurotypical overworked millenials who are polite enough but ultimately not anyone i can ever feel fully comfortable with. like theres a difference for me between people i can get along with and people i can become friends with. because if i cant do the latter, ill probably just feel super isolated and lonely unfortunately :(
manifesting some silly autistic queer person working at target with me oooooooooooo we're gonna become such close friends ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
anyways, mild red flag(?), all the training days are days and times that i specified beforehand i couldnt do. now, im on spring break rn so that doesnt really apply, but like. going forward i NEED them to abide by my school schedule. there is no universe in which i prioritize target over animation school. the auto-generated email told me to email any schedule conflicts with the person who originally emailed me about my job offer so i sent my availability over to that guy a few hours ago. no reply yet, so we'll see how that goes. i will definitely (at least try to) stand up for myself over this though, i literally told them over the phone my general availability and the fact that i was a college student.
anyways, ill probably give an update on how things go tomorrow, and another update by friday. cya!!!!
hoping and praying for coworkers around my age who are also autistic and queer so i can actually have friends at work. realistically speaking i can get along with just about anyone (source: The Diner Job /neg) but really only other queer and autistic people are people i can actually be comfortable with and become proper friends with because i dont have to mask around them. the place is (allegedly) understaffed though so most likely itll just be a bunch of neurotypical overworked millenials who are polite enough but ultimately not anyone i can ever feel fully comfortable with. like theres a difference for me between people i can get along with and people i can become friends with. because if i cant do the latter, ill probably just feel super isolated and lonely unfortunately :(
manifesting some silly autistic queer person working at target with me oooooooooooo we're gonna become such close friends ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
anyways, mild red flag(?), all the training days are days and times that i specified beforehand i couldnt do. now, im on spring break rn so that doesnt really apply, but like. going forward i NEED them to abide by my school schedule. there is no universe in which i prioritize target over animation school. the auto-generated email told me to email any schedule conflicts with the person who originally emailed me about my job offer so i sent my availability over to that guy a few hours ago. no reply yet, so we'll see how that goes. i will definitely (at least try to) stand up for myself over this though, i literally told them over the phone my general availability and the fact that i was a college student.
anyways, ill probably give an update on how things go tomorrow, and another update by friday. cya!!!!
HELLO WELCOME BACK TO MY MADNESS
many smallish life updates to give, mostly writing these because journalling is a healthy outlet (or so im told............)
this is more or less gonna be some venting paired with some general life yapping
( VERY LONG YAP INCOMING )
many smallish life updates to give, mostly writing these because journalling is a healthy outlet (or so im told............)
this is more or less gonna be some venting paired with some general life yapping
( VERY LONG YAP INCOMING )
HEY WHAT HUH WHAT
Jan. 8th, 2026 09:34 pmwas looking at my profile and removing some interest bloat (i put WAY too many interests down originally LOL) and i realized i made this account in 2023 which is wild to me. TECHNICALLY december of 2023 but still, this account just celebrated its second birthday!!!!!!!!!!!
i know i post so inconsistently that i havent been able to keep up with the handful of friends ive made here, but i promise if we've interacted before on here, even once, i still remember and think about you!! im just really notoriously bad with keeping up with people :(
ANYWAYS many hyperfixation shifts later, ive been getting into funger and funger 2, and i actually really like the idea of doing another annotated screenshot playthrough (aka screencap adventure) with funger 2 :0 something about the game's weird save scuminess and play style pushing you to keep starting completely from the beginning seem perfectly suited for that format :0 im not even that far into it, so i feel like it'd be easy to just jump right in
aside from that, heres a little bit of an art dump from my fall semester perspective class!!
( this is all roblox fanart btw )
i know i post so inconsistently that i havent been able to keep up with the handful of friends ive made here, but i promise if we've interacted before on here, even once, i still remember and think about you!! im just really notoriously bad with keeping up with people :(
ANYWAYS many hyperfixation shifts later, ive been getting into funger and funger 2, and i actually really like the idea of doing another annotated screenshot playthrough (aka screencap adventure) with funger 2 :0 something about the game's weird save scuminess and play style pushing you to keep starting completely from the beginning seem perfectly suited for that format :0 im not even that far into it, so i feel like it'd be easy to just jump right in
aside from that, heres a little bit of an art dump from my fall semester perspective class!!
( this is all roblox fanart btw )
SO MANY THOUGHTS, SO LITTLE TIME
Dec. 3rd, 2025 11:45 pmgod i really do need to just sit down one day and commit to making a big update post but im SO LAZY.
anyways i suddenly started getting a decent chunk of online attention from my art and because im a supa dupa private person im just going in and changing certain posts to be access list only. ik this seems like a silly precaution but i started getting a bunch of random friend requests from people on discord so now im a twee paranoid...........
mostly just writing this because i know a few of my friends check my dreamwidth and dont have accounts so if youre wondering where certain posts went youll HAVE TO MAKE AN ACCOUNT TO SEE THEM IDIOT >:)
anyways if youre reading this and you dont know me irl, hi!! feel free to scroll guilt-free, none of these posts have any information you shouldnt know about me!! ^_^ feel free to make an account and say hi, or comment as a guest!
anyways i suddenly started getting a decent chunk of online attention from my art and because im a supa dupa private person im just going in and changing certain posts to be access list only. ik this seems like a silly precaution but i started getting a bunch of random friend requests from people on discord so now im a twee paranoid...........
mostly just writing this because i know a few of my friends check my dreamwidth and dont have accounts so if youre wondering where certain posts went youll HAVE TO MAKE AN ACCOUNT TO SEE THEM IDIOT >:)
anyways if youre reading this and you dont know me irl, hi!! feel free to scroll guilt-free, none of these posts have any information you shouldnt know about me!! ^_^ feel free to make an account and say hi, or comment as a guest!
out of fear of possibly being late i leave my house for my 5 pm shift at 4:30. full well knowing that the diner is 15 minutes max from my house. but the fear of a disaster occurring and causing me to somehow miraculously take 30 minutes to get there grips me. yet now ive arrived at 4:40 and my fear of being too early grips me so i hide in a walgreens and pretend to look at the card section. its the fifth time in a row that ive done this. i am terrified of a walgreens employee saying something.
RANDOM ELIJAH UPDATE LALALALA
Jul. 8th, 2025 11:49 amsorry i really like posting out of nowhere lolll
ANYWAYS i got a job FINALLY. i'm a busboy at a little diner like 10 minutes from my house. even though im 19 this is my first job, ive been trying to get one since i was 15 but because of the fact that id be visiting my dads on weekends no one wanted me :(
actually got a job is a bit of a stretch, technically im still in training so im not being paid anything, i just get a percentage of tips
i might start just yapping/ranting about how it's been there because im a pathetic wet creature and i keep doing things wrong because people dont show me how to do anything (or are just inconsistent. a la napkin placement) and it makes me want to crumble into a thousand tiny pieces and explode.
training isnt paid but also i make my own hours (i can come in whenever i leave whenever) and also they cook me food on my breaks so honestly i dont mind.
im less stressed about everything than i was yesterday (yesterday i was so anxious i lost my appetite and genuinely thought i was running a fever) but ill copy and paste the list of annoyances i made for sillies.
( i like sandwiches and i have anxiety )
ANYWAYS i got a job FINALLY. i'm a busboy at a little diner like 10 minutes from my house. even though im 19 this is my first job, ive been trying to get one since i was 15 but because of the fact that id be visiting my dads on weekends no one wanted me :(
actually got a job is a bit of a stretch, technically im still in training so im not being paid anything, i just get a percentage of tips
i might start just yapping/ranting about how it's been there because im a pathetic wet creature and i keep doing things wrong because people dont show me how to do anything (or are just inconsistent. a la napkin placement) and it makes me want to crumble into a thousand tiny pieces and explode.
training isnt paid but also i make my own hours (i can come in whenever i leave whenever) and also they cook me food on my breaks so honestly i dont mind.
im less stressed about everything than i was yesterday (yesterday i was so anxious i lost my appetite and genuinely thought i was running a fever) but ill copy and paste the list of annoyances i made for sillies.
( i like sandwiches and i have anxiety )
imposter syndrome sandwich
Feb. 11th, 2025 12:53 amhihihihi do u guys wanna see some homework ive been up to
( WHAT ARE YOU. an imposter syndrome sandwich <\3 )
( WHAT ARE YOU. an imposter syndrome sandwich <\3 )
step 1. be in nyc. step 2. ???
Dec. 21st, 2024 01:40 amhey so.. have u guys heard of ube....
so i was in chinatown with my friend yesterday and was on the lookout for ube because i randomly got it in my head that i wanted to make ube crinkles after being seduced by the ube baking tiktoks and youtube shorts ive been seeing for a little over a year now.
also this guy
( i only remembered purple yam cookie existed like last week and that was enough to rewire my brain into ube baking mode )
so i was in chinatown with my friend yesterday and was on the lookout for ube because i randomly got it in my head that i wanted to make ube crinkles after being seduced by the ube baking tiktoks and youtube shorts ive been seeing for a little over a year now.
also this guy
( i only remembered purple yam cookie existed like last week and that was enough to rewire my brain into ube baking mode )
man i have some huge life updates to drop but THAT DOESNT MATTER
THIS HAS BEEN A LONG TIME COMING
( THE END OF THE BG3 SCREENCAP ADVENTURE )
THIS HAS BEEN A LONG TIME COMING
( THE END OF THE BG3 SCREENCAP ADVENTURE )
"im back" top 10 lies
May. 13th, 2024 09:18 amWOW. ITS BEEN SO LONG. MANY MOONS. I SHOULD GIVE A LIFE UPDATE.
( i feel obligated to make a cut whenever i include images )
( i feel obligated to make a cut whenever i include images )
the corpse regards you, lifelessly
Mar. 18th, 2024 07:33 amHI IM BACK
IDK WHAT HAPPENED I JUST BLINKED AND ITS BEEN LIKE A FULL MONTH AND I HAVENT POSTED ON HERE IN FOREVER AND A HALF
ANYWAYS ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW :3
really upset bc i fully intended to do the baldur's gate march art/writing prompts, march 1st rolled in and i just sat there. and was like "i could not even dream of doing a whole comic page for a whole month" esp because historically. my artistic speed is atrocious.
i sorta just decided that at a certain point I'd revisit the prompts and do the ones I'm most interested in on my own time, which is prolly a lot healthier for me
i am working on a fun angst comic about matthias's auntie ethel interaction tho !!! :3
when i get home i'll prolly make a big baldurs gate post bc I AM ALMOST AT THE END OF THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IDK WHAT HAPPENED I JUST BLINKED AND ITS BEEN LIKE A FULL MONTH AND I HAVENT POSTED ON HERE IN FOREVER AND A HALF
ANYWAYS ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW :3
really upset bc i fully intended to do the baldur's gate march art/writing prompts, march 1st rolled in and i just sat there. and was like "i could not even dream of doing a whole comic page for a whole month" esp because historically. my artistic speed is atrocious.
i sorta just decided that at a certain point I'd revisit the prompts and do the ones I'm most interested in on my own time, which is prolly a lot healthier for me
i am working on a fun angst comic about matthias's auntie ethel interaction tho !!! :3
when i get home i'll prolly make a big baldurs gate post bc I AM ALMOST AT THE END OF THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
crisis adverted
Feb. 24th, 2024 02:00 pmIVE REPLACED EVERY SINGLE IMAGE WITH A REUPLOADED IMAGE ON IMGBB!!! MY POSTS ARE ALL SAVED!!!
YIPPEE!!!!!!!
YIPPEE!!!!!!!
OH SHIT OH FUCK
Feb. 24th, 2024 12:48 pmthe day came sooner than expected apparently.
DISCORD IS DELETING ATTACHMENTS AFTER A CERTAIN PERIOD OF TIME SO ALL MY IMAGES AND GIFS ARE BROKEN
NOW I HAVE TO GO BACK AND PERIODICALLY REUPLOAD ALL MY IMAGES ON AN IMAGE HOSTING SITE
MY PROFILE IS SO NAKED QMQ
DISCORD IS DELETING ATTACHMENTS AFTER A CERTAIN PERIOD OF TIME SO ALL MY IMAGES AND GIFS ARE BROKEN
NOW I HAVE TO GO BACK AND PERIODICALLY REUPLOAD ALL MY IMAGES ON AN IMAGE HOSTING SITE
MY PROFILE IS SO NAKED QMQ
