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ironicallyelijahman i have some huge life updates to drop but THAT DOESNT MATTER
THIS HAS BEEN A LONG TIME COMING
unrelated to anything and just here for a funny setup to this post: i was in the midst of a panic attack and then i just
TIME TO FINISH THE STORY
so where we last left off our heroes were in the shar trials!
hooh boy. i have a lot to update.
HONESTLY NOT EVEN IN REGARDS TO BG3 EVENTS, JUST STUFF I ENDED UP COMING UP WITH FOR HIS CHARACTER AND POST-CANON STUFF.
so i'm gonna have to skip over a lot of things, but this is all probably pretty redundant if you've already played bg3 anyways so we'll survive.
MATTHIAS MONTAGE AS WE FAST FORWARD
WENT BACK AND DID THIS. LIVE MATTHIAS AND ASTARION REACTION.
idk if i mentioned this before but shadowheart and matthias have a sibling dynamic and hes really happy to get close with her because hes never really had a sister/sister figure before. now he gets another sister! hi aylin ^_^
i actually do not think i couldve beat baldurs gate without nyrula. love you nyrula.
ok! so! the balthazar fight! from memory (bc i started playing in like january and finished in april) i was able to kill balthazar relatively easily. except! so! uh! flesh! the flesh golem!
what ended up happening was flesh killed everyone except for matthias, leaving matthias just scrambling around every turn trying to put as much distance between them as possible while feebly attempting to shoot him with his crossbow. for extra angst, i made matthias revive astarion, and the two of them made as much distance away from flesh as possible. astarion was able to deal the final blow, but only after flesh finally managed to get a hold of matthias and kill him. just. thinking about that.
astarion died, nothing new, they've died many times before, he'd be back soon and the fight will probably already be over. the first thing he sees as he wakes up is his lover's petrified face, white as a sheet thanking selune for bringing astarion back to him before remembering the impending threat looming just feet away and having to explain everything to astarion before they have to book it. he doesnt even have time to heal astarion. everything aches, he's battered and bruised and sweaty, just following matthias. eventually the gravity of the situation finally weighs on him and he draws his weapon, oh yeah i can fight back, im not just a caged animal, and he begins chipping away at this hulking monstrosity's health, matthias joining in. but matthias gets a little too close. he feels hope bubble within him, and underestimates the creature that massacred his teammates. he forgets to fall back. hes torn apart. flesh's only foley, the opening that allows astarion to finally eviscerate this reanimated carcass is it ignoring astarion just to take an extra turn to make sure matthias is dead. because down isn't enough. it doesn't seem to display any kind of intelligence, but apparently there's enough of a creature in there to either despise matthias and his team members, or take real genuine pleasure in making sure they're truly desecrated.
it was probably very stressful and horrifying and i imagine there was a therapy session around the campfire that night.
matthias: "hey guys! ^w^ I know that last fight sorta left us with some … feelings that we might need to get out! breaks down sobbing"
gin (gininabin, HE FINALLY MADE A DREAMWIDTH) even made a lovely comic about it, ft. their tav tris who we headcanon exists within my bg3 playthrough, she just does not give a fuck and does nothing to help the team.
defiantthias
I'LL HAVE ANOTHER ONE BARKEEP
ANOTHER GIN-MADE COMIC WITH TRIS AND MATTHIAS!!! they actually have a very silly dynamic
ANYWAYS WITH ALL THIS TALK OF TRIS, WE REALLY SHOULD MEET THE GAL!!!
(drawn of course by the very talented gin ^_^)
isnt she just
MAN. the entire cazador quest was a whole thing. the sebastian interaction especially. a lot of realizations were made. the thing is, matthias is not naive. he always knew astarion really wasn't the best person, especially at the beginning of their relationship. the night of the tiefling party and up until the interaction with araj that leads to their relationship finally paving way to a real relationship, matthias knew he was being played. he knew astarion was more or less using him, but he just allowed it to continue because he felt like it was the best he'd get. even beyond that, he knew where their alignments differed, where astarion's priorities lie, and astarion's penchant for disapproving of matthias's lawful good actions. but not only finally getting to hear about astarion's past actions but how astarion was willing to kill thousands of innocent spawns, matthias realized the true magnitude of the precipice astarion was staring over and would fall in if he continued to stay passive.
they were in a real relationship.
but if they met even less than a year earlier, matthias would've been another lured victim. when astarion and matthias met and subsequently started sleeping together, matthias was inexperienced and shy and entranced. he couldve been sebastian.
so he spoke up. and astarion stepped back. and it took a bit, but astarion realized how bad the fall would've been and how much hurt he was in for.
in another world, matthias is pulled by astarion right down the gaping abyss and in for just as much pain as he is.
its a good thing we're in this world.
NO THAT DOESNT MEAN CELEBRATE BY HAVING SEX IN A GRAVEYARD WHAT
fun fact for reasons i will not disclose i was actually terrified of cazador and i would skip some of astarion's dialogue mentioning him because it would send me into spiraling and panic attacks. while i was excited for the development in astarion's story, i was dreading cazador's palace for that reason. then i made it down to the ritual chamber. and. when i tell you. all of my fear melted the moment i saw and heard him.
gin can i attest to this: i immediately unmuted to scream laugh
WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE THAT. IM CRYING. I CANT DO THIS GUYS. WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE THAT. INSANE MAN. WAS IT INTENTIONAL???? WAS IT A WAY TO NERF HIS CHARACTER????
this genre of gin texts
gin drew matthias and astarion playing the wedding shoe game ^_^ what question do you think they were asked
pretty lighting
last kiss before possibly dying............... matthias has blind optimism and sorta naturally assumes everything will work out, so astarion's probably the only one really kissing like it's the last time they may ever see each other. au where one of them dies in battle perhaps? ^_^
ah.
THEY DID IT!!!!!! WE DID IT!!!! WE SAVED THE WORLD!!!!!!!! THEY FINALLY GET TO RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
except for karlach and wyll :( of all the things i loved about bg3, my main gripe is the fact that wyll and karlach don't exactly have conclusive happy endings. more like happy endings in progress. luckily, i can do whatever i want, so don't fret, i have it on good authority karlach and wyll will be in faerun to stay next reunion :>
SO!!!!! LET'S TALK POST-CANON MATTHIAS!!!!! the rest of this is gonna be just me rambling about matthias and astarion and headcanons and silly self-indulgent fluff, so if you really don't care that much feel free to click off :>
i came up with the concept that while he was in the house of hope, on top of stealing the gauntlets of hill giant strength, he came across another artifact. an artifact that can heal any curse. and so because of that, he can finally heal his brother caine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fun fact, caine is very wary of astarion after first meeting him because
matthias sorta just. instilled a hatred of vampires in him by accident! oops! yes he can immediately recognize astarion off the bat, it is THE worst kept secret in the world.
so beyond that, matthias and astarion settle down in a cozy cottage on the outskirts of baldurs gate and get married. ive tossed ideas back and forth on matthias being able to extend his lifespan so he can at least have a decent number of centuries with astarion. maybe as a level 12 cleric selune blesses him with a longer life, maybe gale or tris are able to find a spell or potion for him to extend his life, its dnd, really the possibilities are endless. HOWEVER, i really like the idea of him messing up his attempts to become immortal and becoming a lich ^_^ possibilities really are endless!!!
so anyways, what exactly to astarion and matthias do with all that well-deserved free time?
well!
this thing.
WELL OKAY SO THEY ACTUALLY HAVE TWO OF THOSE THINGS.
so during my bg3 playthrough, i was able to save yenna and i just. her.
DOESNT SHE LOOK JUST LIKE A LITTLE BABY PRE-TRANSITION MATTHIAS?? I LOVE HERRRRR QWQ
i got so attached to her that i would buy her soup every evening and morning and give her books to read so she wouldn't get bored. i would scan every chest and box i came across and (after making sure they were child appropriate) would collect books i thought she'd like. matthias and astarion sorta agree to adopt her before they even battle the netherbrain, they're both super attached to her (even though astarion likes to act like hes más o menos), but they dont say anything until after they save the world. yknow. in case.
so they adopt her and its very cute. little sweetie pie scurrying around the house cooking soup and getting into general mischief. they relax and settle into their domestic life, not really having anything to complain about. saving the world left them a comfortable pile of gold to lean on. it was hard to miss sunlight when both of their worlds were pretty comfortably tucked away in the quiet shadows of retirement.
then matthias realizes he wants to have a baby.
then we get this thing!!
(first doodle i did of her)
LISTEN I KNOW MOST PEOPLE HEADCANON ASTARION AS INFERTILE UNLESS HES ASCENDED BUT THATS SO BORING PLEASE LET ME HAVE THIS
ironically when i come up with concepts for ascended astarion and matthias sora never exists. she just cant. the universe wont allow it.
matthias lets astarion name her because he never got the opportunity to give himself his adult name. her full name is visora but basically everyone calls her sora. shes a dhampir and also full elf because i had to look up how elf genetics work and apparently children of half elfs will just be the full version of whichever race the other parent is (i.e. elf + h/e = elf & human + h/e = human)
anyways we're so normal about sora
and also because i cant help but ruin everything i touch theres a fun concept i came up with where sora sneaks out of the house and into the woods and gets taken by a hag, digested and turned, then given back to matthias and astarion so they have to watch her slowly grow into a hag by the time she's 13 and astarion watches this little creature who he helped make who heavily resembles himself before he was turned into a vampire slowly contort into an unrecognizable monster.
they dont know what to do because they cant fathom abandoning her but shes no longer in there and actively attempts to attack them so they lock her in the house and just. hope. hope their sweet girl will come back to them.
theres also a fun alternative where tris is able to cure her from the transformation but shes physically and mentally stunted as a child. shes entirely nonverbal, has daily panic attacks, and needs to be hooked up to medical equipment at all times. matthias and astarion cant deal with another close call and become irrationally overprotective and paranoid. meanwhile yenna's left feeling extremely isolated and emotionally neglected. by the time she's old enough, she leaves for culinary school. she doesnt visit much, if ever.
but that's all in another world.
its a good thing we're in this world.
I THINK THAT ABOUT SUMS UP EVERYTHING I WANTED TO GET OUT? HONESTLY IF I HAVE MORE HEADCANONS I WANNA TOSS AROUND OR SILLY IDEAS ILL JUST MAKE ANOTHER POST FOR MY MUSINGS. I HOPE THIS READS WELL, ITS ENTIRELY UNEDITED!!!! ^_^
THIS HAS BEEN A LONG TIME COMING
unrelated to anything and just here for a funny setup to this post: i was in the midst of a panic attack and then i just
TIME TO FINISH THE STORY
so where we last left off our heroes were in the shar trials!
hooh boy. i have a lot to update.
HONESTLY NOT EVEN IN REGARDS TO BG3 EVENTS, JUST STUFF I ENDED UP COMING UP WITH FOR HIS CHARACTER AND POST-CANON STUFF.
so i'm gonna have to skip over a lot of things, but this is all probably pretty redundant if you've already played bg3 anyways so we'll survive.
MATTHIAS MONTAGE AS WE FAST FORWARD
WENT BACK AND DID THIS. LIVE MATTHIAS AND ASTARION REACTION.
idk if i mentioned this before but shadowheart and matthias have a sibling dynamic and hes really happy to get close with her because hes never really had a sister/sister figure before. now he gets another sister! hi aylin ^_^
i actually do not think i couldve beat baldurs gate without nyrula. love you nyrula.
ok! so! the balthazar fight! from memory (bc i started playing in like january and finished in april) i was able to kill balthazar relatively easily. except! so! uh! flesh! the flesh golem!
what ended up happening was flesh killed everyone except for matthias, leaving matthias just scrambling around every turn trying to put as much distance between them as possible while feebly attempting to shoot him with his crossbow. for extra angst, i made matthias revive astarion, and the two of them made as much distance away from flesh as possible. astarion was able to deal the final blow, but only after flesh finally managed to get a hold of matthias and kill him. just. thinking about that.
astarion died, nothing new, they've died many times before, he'd be back soon and the fight will probably already be over. the first thing he sees as he wakes up is his lover's petrified face, white as a sheet thanking selune for bringing astarion back to him before remembering the impending threat looming just feet away and having to explain everything to astarion before they have to book it. he doesnt even have time to heal astarion. everything aches, he's battered and bruised and sweaty, just following matthias. eventually the gravity of the situation finally weighs on him and he draws his weapon, oh yeah i can fight back, im not just a caged animal, and he begins chipping away at this hulking monstrosity's health, matthias joining in. but matthias gets a little too close. he feels hope bubble within him, and underestimates the creature that massacred his teammates. he forgets to fall back. hes torn apart. flesh's only foley, the opening that allows astarion to finally eviscerate this reanimated carcass is it ignoring astarion just to take an extra turn to make sure matthias is dead. because down isn't enough. it doesn't seem to display any kind of intelligence, but apparently there's enough of a creature in there to either despise matthias and his team members, or take real genuine pleasure in making sure they're truly desecrated.
it was probably very stressful and horrifying and i imagine there was a therapy session around the campfire that night.
matthias: "hey guys! ^w^ I know that last fight sorta left us with some … feelings that we might need to get out! breaks down sobbing"
gin (
gininabin, HE FINALLY MADE A DREAMWIDTH) even made a lovely comic about it, ft. their tav tris who we headcanon exists within my bg3 playthrough, she just does not give a fuck and does nothing to help the team.defiantthias
I'LL HAVE ANOTHER ONE BARKEEP
ANOTHER GIN-MADE COMIC WITH TRIS AND MATTHIAS!!! they actually have a very silly dynamic
ANYWAYS WITH ALL THIS TALK OF TRIS, WE REALLY SHOULD MEET THE GAL!!!
(drawn of course by the very talented gin ^_^)
isnt she just
MAN. the entire cazador quest was a whole thing. the sebastian interaction especially. a lot of realizations were made. the thing is, matthias is not naive. he always knew astarion really wasn't the best person, especially at the beginning of their relationship. the night of the tiefling party and up until the interaction with araj that leads to their relationship finally paving way to a real relationship, matthias knew he was being played. he knew astarion was more or less using him, but he just allowed it to continue because he felt like it was the best he'd get. even beyond that, he knew where their alignments differed, where astarion's priorities lie, and astarion's penchant for disapproving of matthias's lawful good actions. but not only finally getting to hear about astarion's past actions but how astarion was willing to kill thousands of innocent spawns, matthias realized the true magnitude of the precipice astarion was staring over and would fall in if he continued to stay passive.
they were in a real relationship.
but if they met even less than a year earlier, matthias would've been another lured victim. when astarion and matthias met and subsequently started sleeping together, matthias was inexperienced and shy and entranced. he couldve been sebastian.
so he spoke up. and astarion stepped back. and it took a bit, but astarion realized how bad the fall would've been and how much hurt he was in for.
in another world, matthias is pulled by astarion right down the gaping abyss and in for just as much pain as he is.
its a good thing we're in this world.
NO THAT DOESNT MEAN CELEBRATE BY HAVING SEX IN A GRAVEYARD WHAT
fun fact for reasons i will not disclose i was actually terrified of cazador and i would skip some of astarion's dialogue mentioning him because it would send me into spiraling and panic attacks. while i was excited for the development in astarion's story, i was dreading cazador's palace for that reason. then i made it down to the ritual chamber. and. when i tell you. all of my fear melted the moment i saw and heard him.
gin can i attest to this: i immediately unmuted to scream laugh
WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE THAT. IM CRYING. I CANT DO THIS GUYS. WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE THAT. INSANE MAN. WAS IT INTENTIONAL???? WAS IT A WAY TO NERF HIS CHARACTER????
this genre of gin texts
gin drew matthias and astarion playing the wedding shoe game ^_^ what question do you think they were asked
pretty lighting
last kiss before possibly dying............... matthias has blind optimism and sorta naturally assumes everything will work out, so astarion's probably the only one really kissing like it's the last time they may ever see each other. au where one of them dies in battle perhaps? ^_^
ah.
THEY DID IT!!!!!! WE DID IT!!!! WE SAVED THE WORLD!!!!!!!! THEY FINALLY GET TO RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
except for karlach and wyll :( of all the things i loved about bg3, my main gripe is the fact that wyll and karlach don't exactly have conclusive happy endings. more like happy endings in progress. luckily, i can do whatever i want, so don't fret, i have it on good authority karlach and wyll will be in faerun to stay next reunion :>
SO!!!!! LET'S TALK POST-CANON MATTHIAS!!!!! the rest of this is gonna be just me rambling about matthias and astarion and headcanons and silly self-indulgent fluff, so if you really don't care that much feel free to click off :>
i came up with the concept that while he was in the house of hope, on top of stealing the gauntlets of hill giant strength, he came across another artifact. an artifact that can heal any curse. and so because of that, he can finally heal his brother caine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fun fact, caine is very wary of astarion after first meeting him because
matthias sorta just. instilled a hatred of vampires in him by accident! oops! yes he can immediately recognize astarion off the bat, it is THE worst kept secret in the world.
so beyond that, matthias and astarion settle down in a cozy cottage on the outskirts of baldurs gate and get married. ive tossed ideas back and forth on matthias being able to extend his lifespan so he can at least have a decent number of centuries with astarion. maybe as a level 12 cleric selune blesses him with a longer life, maybe gale or tris are able to find a spell or potion for him to extend his life, its dnd, really the possibilities are endless. HOWEVER, i really like the idea of him messing up his attempts to become immortal and becoming a lich ^_^ possibilities really are endless!!!
so anyways, what exactly to astarion and matthias do with all that well-deserved free time?
well!
this thing.
WELL OKAY SO THEY ACTUALLY HAVE TWO OF THOSE THINGS.
so during my bg3 playthrough, i was able to save yenna and i just. her.
DOESNT SHE LOOK JUST LIKE A LITTLE BABY PRE-TRANSITION MATTHIAS?? I LOVE HERRRRR QWQ
i got so attached to her that i would buy her soup every evening and morning and give her books to read so she wouldn't get bored. i would scan every chest and box i came across and (after making sure they were child appropriate) would collect books i thought she'd like. matthias and astarion sorta agree to adopt her before they even battle the netherbrain, they're both super attached to her (even though astarion likes to act like hes más o menos), but they dont say anything until after they save the world. yknow. in case.
so they adopt her and its very cute. little sweetie pie scurrying around the house cooking soup and getting into general mischief. they relax and settle into their domestic life, not really having anything to complain about. saving the world left them a comfortable pile of gold to lean on. it was hard to miss sunlight when both of their worlds were pretty comfortably tucked away in the quiet shadows of retirement.
then matthias realizes he wants to have a baby.
then we get this thing!!
(first doodle i did of her)
LISTEN I KNOW MOST PEOPLE HEADCANON ASTARION AS INFERTILE UNLESS HES ASCENDED BUT THATS SO BORING PLEASE LET ME HAVE THIS
ironically when i come up with concepts for ascended astarion and matthias sora never exists. she just cant. the universe wont allow it.
matthias lets astarion name her because he never got the opportunity to give himself his adult name. her full name is visora but basically everyone calls her sora. shes a dhampir and also full elf because i had to look up how elf genetics work and apparently children of half elfs will just be the full version of whichever race the other parent is (i.e. elf + h/e = elf & human + h/e = human)
anyways we're so normal about sora
and also because i cant help but ruin everything i touch theres a fun concept i came up with where sora sneaks out of the house and into the woods and gets taken by a hag, digested and turned, then given back to matthias and astarion so they have to watch her slowly grow into a hag by the time she's 13 and astarion watches this little creature who he helped make who heavily resembles himself before he was turned into a vampire slowly contort into an unrecognizable monster.
they dont know what to do because they cant fathom abandoning her but shes no longer in there and actively attempts to attack them so they lock her in the house and just. hope. hope their sweet girl will come back to them.
theres also a fun alternative where tris is able to cure her from the transformation but shes physically and mentally stunted as a child. shes entirely nonverbal, has daily panic attacks, and needs to be hooked up to medical equipment at all times. matthias and astarion cant deal with another close call and become irrationally overprotective and paranoid. meanwhile yenna's left feeling extremely isolated and emotionally neglected. by the time she's old enough, she leaves for culinary school. she doesnt visit much, if ever.
but that's all in another world.
its a good thing we're in this world.
I THINK THAT ABOUT SUMS UP EVERYTHING I WANTED TO GET OUT? HONESTLY IF I HAVE MORE HEADCANONS I WANNA TOSS AROUND OR SILLY IDEAS ILL JUST MAKE ANOTHER POST FOR MY MUSINGS. I HOPE THIS READS WELL, ITS ENTIRELY UNEDITED!!!! ^_^